It doesn't happen very often but there are times I am so down about my anxiety, fear, limitations with the mental disorder. I just want to hide in a cleft in a rock. There are also times that are so wonderful. I know how blessed I am. I know the love of God for me. That my sins are forgiven and I have eternal life with a growing eternal relationship with the Father, Son and Spirit.
Then I realize...He is the rock I hide in. He is the mountaintop I so delight in. That my striving is only in His rest. He truly is all there is in the highs and the lows. There is perfect peace in His presence. Oh Lord how I seek your face and want to dwell with you forever more.