The holidays have melted into honors for my husband and a big victory for the University and coach Dabo.
Life went on as usual. Preparing for the cold to come and the grands to show their happy faces. Food to be bought, cooked and enjoyed and cleaning that lasted seems for days.
I was surprised at the energy I had and was so thankful. Really without much thought just loving being with everybody. It took everyone full time to keep up with the daily activities and fun.
As time drew near too soon, everyone returned to home and work. I was so sadden at everyone leaving. I went down in the bed not to get up but to eat and try to get the Christmas decorations with the help of family and friends.
I didn't even realize that the depression had crept in and weighted me down but it had.
It was shadowed by the honors and awards that showered my husband and me not being able to keep up with the demands of the wonderful recognition to him. It was history repeating itself with the winning of the Championship of the University.
We sat with the dr explaining my good points as well as my struggles. He said I was better than I had been in years. As we returned home I got even more sad wondering why my strength was gone.
Time with the Lord brought things to a better light how God had used my struggles in ways to free me and bring about good things in my life I could not manage or do on my own.
Joy! came over me as I saw Gods goodness and blessings and promises present and evident. That the Father loved me deeply and was proud of me that His grace had brought me through one more holiday with those I love. That friends and family showed His mercy in greater ways even.
I have a new strength and love than even before. Seeing life through the eyes of Jesus is a gift. Feeling secure and blessed by the work and victory you do is wonderful. But knowing the redemptive work of God and man in this life we live is a blessing in itself. How do I question Gods plan but rejoice!
The rest of my life may not be in the limelight or as significant as it has been to this point of my life. But I know my purpose and plan that is written on my heart... to love God with my whole heart and others. When I fall the Spirit reminds me I am His and dearly loved. That I am righteous. It is the rock on which I stand. It is none other that the love of Jesus in which I love. It is not to be famous but to overflow with the love of His. Even when I fail He never does.