The first of this year I began a journey...I wanted to know God more and me more. I think this is basic to christianity as well as a healthy life.
As you may know I have been taking a break from writing here sense the first of the year. I am not quiet sure when I will write again on the blog. Just check by if you will...
Learning to take care of me. Being kind to myself. Doing things for me, does not come natural for me. Rest when I need to. See good friends. Taking time again to journal. Ask for prayer. Eat good food. Learning to relax.
Wanting to love me more as Jesus says, we are to love others as ourselves, but still consider others more valuable than me. I use to think, when my children were young, that taking time for me was selfish. I have come to realize that a mother needs to take care of herself... to be there for her family.
We have such a good, good Father and that is where I have begun my search. In seeing God can use us and we are beautiful children of God. We are beggars leading other beggars to bread...we are the very children of God. If only we could depend on God and trust Him as a little child.
Finding peace of Christ in my heart and mind has been another focus. I am in a bible study of wonderful christian women. Not on the computer nearly as much. Off twitter for the most part. I hope you will follow me on Instagram. Posting some of my home and the changes I am making. Along with a few fun things. I have been doing some decluttering in my home and trying to lighten things up for Spring. Organizing things and finding less is best. It has been fun. I hope to have some new projects. Use mostly what I have. I am enjoying using things that are meaningful to me. Spending very little in the few things I might purchase. My new love is caring for plants. Maybe even a small garden...who knows at this point.
In this journey, I have seen how attached we can get to the things of this world. My prayer is to be focused on God, especially during this time. I have come to understand we can see Jesus in the midst of our relationships. Enjoying God through creativity and His creation. Cows in my back yard, birds that I can't keep fed are such a joy to me. Hearing the true voice of God though His word and the illumination of my mind, in the midst of my psychosis, is a challenge I did not expect. God is showing up in places and ways I did not expect. Finding I am not as plyable nor humble nearly as much as I need to be to have it Gods way not mine. I am enjoying His word more than ever. Getting back to basics.
I have plans to begin exercising with my group on Mon. Starting a new small group at church. I would like to take a painting class. See an airplane fly. Not be guided by fear but by the Spirit.
As always I know God can and does interrupt our plans as we give Him this freedom.
I am hoping to find a fuller life and love people better through this search. Maybe as Jesus loves, is my desire.
This is a bit of an update. Looking forward to seeing you and hearing your comments on Instagram and here.
