This morning as I sat out on the porch, in the early hour, I saw a power line. Right in the middle of the line was perched a bird. The bird looked back and it looked forward. I was thinking to myself...now what do you do. If he has fallen off he would for sure die. He seemed so confident, not afraid, just standing there suspended in mid air on the power line. Then is a few moments it did the thing I expect most. He flew away.
Sometimes walking a tight rope can seem like walking in faith to me. I feel like a bird perched in mid air. I wonder which way do I go forward or backward or am I frozen still? Why was the bird so confident? Because he could fly. Do I believe I can fly? Do I believe Gods Spirit is beneath my wings? If jumped off the rope could I survive? If I began to fall would the Lord surly catch me? How I believe effects everything I do. What is the theology of my heart, not my mind but what are the forces than nudge we away from my illusion of safety. I can be like that bird and think I am so afraid, nothing can help me. It is just me and God here.
God draws these fears out of our heart. He reveals them to us through circumstances and people. That is where He meets us at the point of our need. Fear can paralyze us. The fear of not succeeding with our jobs, children, marriage, ministry. The fear of failure is a powerful thing. But when we have the confidence that even if I fall or fail my God is with me. He promises to use it all, the successes and the failures for better good than we can imagine. He just wants us to try our wings of faith. To jump off our false securities and attempt to fly.
To know Gods promises and that He will keep them to us even when we are afraid. You cannot stay in the middle. You can either press on in your own strength. You can go backward and lose ground. Or you fly away into freedom, empowered beyond anything you can do.
In His Hands He's got the whole world, the whole world in His hands? Do I believe God is big enough to hold my whole life and future in His hands? When I am in fear of pain and failure there is only one place to run, under the wing of our God. When you think this thing is just between me and God really. Many may give you advice but in the end it is you before God. Will I step out, off, my security line and attempt to be free. It is better to fail than not to do nothing. When we are consumed with fear of what might happen, we do not move. We become isolated, depressed or stuck in sin, we regress. We pull away from God and others. God can pull you out of this, rescue you, but in the meantime you try to stop time. You cannot stop time but it can pass you by. I know, I have been frozen for 17 years. Now I am learning to trust God with my everything, my heart, my possessions, the loves of my heart, my future. I am beginning to dream again. To see life as full and adventurous, exciting. My passive, hard heart has gotten courage and compassion. There is no limit to how high I can fly. I must just keep looking up if I want to live not just survive. This life of faith is a whole new way of living to someone who has tried to do all the rules and found out she just can't. But Christ did and He gives us that perfect obedience. We just don't have one of our own and when we try apart from Christ, in our own strength, we cease to act out as a human living in this world. We merely exist. But Christ is our life. We can accept it, live His life through us and fly. "I'll fly away oh glory, I'll fly away."
When I was young I was a daddy's girl. Mom and I got close the more I moved into womanhood. My dad was a true picture of the Father to me. He loved me unconditionally. He gave me himself, his love, his time, his money, his talents. He gave me him.
I remember the barbecue pit he built we use to roast marsh mellows on with his Sunday School class he taught. THe times he would take me shopping for school clothes just before school started even though he was working two jobs to make it. The first time he showed me the ocean and the run and play on the beach. He loved for me to laugh and tickel me, he would say you wantta see a cow eat corn and he would grab my knee and begin to try to make me laugh. The time he taught me to ride my bike and roller skate. The motor he put on the back of my surrey with the fringe on top. And the time He caught me off of the high dive. He was always there to enjoy me and delight over me. We danced and laughed and road around in his car with the windows rolled down. I remember the time he had to put my dog down and how I road off on my bike as fast as I could as far as I could until I heard the gun go off. I remember the bunny rabbit he bought us and how it would get in the toilet. How he use to call me Debs. No body did that but my dad. He had a name just for me. I not only shared happy times with my dad but hard times, hurtful things. He always knew my heart. He loved my sister and I unconditionally and was the best dad a girl could have. He never rejected us or made us doubt his love. We trusted him completely. I love you dad and miss you bunches, kiddo, he use to say.
Some of you didn't have such happy childhoods and there is still lots of pain when you think of the dad you had or didn't have with you. I want you to know your Father in heaven is the dad you never had. He will never disappoint you. He will never leave you nor turn on you. He will always provide for you and meet your needs. Nothing can separate you from the Fathers love. He is a Father to the Fatherless. If He hasn't already let Him show you how you are His precious child who he chose before time and adopted into His kingdom family. You are rich and blessed and loved. Let Him heal your heart and your hurts and pains and memories of things just too painful to remember but on days like this when they won't stop flashing through your mind. He took the rejection on the cross for you and me. So we will never be rejected. He will never let you down. He knows what is best for you and you can trust Him completely. Your relationship with the Father can be as real and more satisfying than any relationship on earth. He knows your heart. Your thoughts before you think them. All there is about you and He wants to hold you in His arms and spend time with you forever.
Thank you Father for loving us beyond anything we can imagine we ever need. Thanks for filling that whole in the pit of our stomach and the center of our hearts that we think only a earthly father can fill. You are our creator and love us with an everlasting, sustaining, love that brings us to peace, joy and contentment. You will never let us go. Nothing can ever separate us from your love or affections for us. You write a song and sing it over us. You delight and find great joy in us and who we are. You are a part of us as your Spirit lives in us with your Son. You love us as much as you love Jesus. Nothing we do, think or say can ever change your love for us because we are yours. You know the worst things there is about us and love us like your very own anyway. We may run away from you but you will never turn your back on us. As a matter of fact you run after us till we are in your embrace and nothing can pry us loose. You have a special name just for us in Heaven. I love you "Daddy". Thanks for rescuing me and making me your own. I am my "Daddy's" girl.