All I am wanting to do is sleep. I don't think it is depression. Even though these last few days have been really hard. When I am like this I feel really alone. I can't enter into relationship. Do activities or my duty.
I have no energy mentally or physically to do anything. I can't even concentrate enough to read. I tried to listen to sermons but I fall asleep. The other night I was talking to my daughter and I fell asleep on the phone with her. Then later with a friend.
My husband says I talk drugged. I think my medication needs lowering. Sometimes the better you are feeling the less medication you need. I have a call into my doctor.
This feeling of being alone is the hardest thing to cope with. No one can really walk with me through this. I wonder why the Lord does not remove it? But one thing I know is He walks with me through this. He may not remove the hard circumstances but He does walk with me through them. I am never alone. One thing, with the help of the Spirit, I am able to do. I am able to fix my eyes on the Father and His love for me. He is relentless and never changing. I can rest there. In His precious affections for me. My mind may say I am alone. But my heart tells me I am