Transformed

This morning as I began my day.  I decided to do everything I could to help this depression that veiled my head, go away .  Staying really busy seemed to be what stuck with me.  I would go into town.  Get my hair cut and then off to shop.  That should brightened any girls day.

I had completed the things I wanted to do and was contemplating calling my doctor again.  If anything the depression seemed worse not better.  I had a meeting later.  As much as I wanted to go to the meeting.  I didn't know how I was going to make it.  Maybe my friend couldn't come.  Only to find out it was great with her.  Meeting her was so important to me I committed myself to go.

We were so glad to see each other.  We had plans for the meeting but it didn't go that way.  Instead we comforted and encouraged each other.  With the faithfulness and love of God.  We shared our hearts and found our bond with each other talking about God and His glory in our lives.  He was each of our hope.  We built each other up in the faith.  Promising to pray for the other I found  myself loosing track of the time.  Suddenly I met friend after friend coming in the restaurant where we were meeting.  With kindred Spirits so thrilled to see each one.  We all shared a brokenness and need for our Savior.

As I drove away I looked in the mirror.  I was changed.  I had met, talked and shared about the love of God.  My heart was encouraged. Such joy filled my heart.   I felt no more depression.  The veil that separated me was lifted.  I felt you could see the shine of His glory in my face and theirs.  It was amazing.  We had met with each other and God.  We felt the Spirit in our midst.  We were transformed. 

Waiting

The depression is too frequent and  lasted too long.  It is getting harder and harder to get myself out of the depression.   I made a doctor appointment today.   Use to I needed family and friends to tell me when it was time to go to the doctor  Now I recognize these symptoms more on my own.  I still value others opinions.  Sometimes they can see the symptoms before I can.

I have full confidence in my doctor.  You need that.  He is great with medicine.  It is just a gift he has.  He has put me on a vitamin for the transmitters in the brain.  Also he said I have to make myself take walks each morning.  We will see how this works for the depression.  I go back in two weeks and we will decided what to do from there.  God uses doctors and medicine to make us well and for His glory.  I am waiting  and doing what I need to do, in faith, the cloud will lift.

I appreciate your prayers and I am praying for you.  Our spiritual lives are a part of every area of our lives.  Our relationship with God is not just for Sunday morning.  Morning devotional.  He wants to walk with us through everything.  His Spirit lives in us.  After He was raised from the dead He went to be with the Father and sent His Spirit into our hearts.  So Jesus and the Father are always with us.

Gods richest blessings to you all!!!

Dry Bones

Since I wrote the last post it has been running through my mind.  That is what I do sometimes is obscess over things.  Can't get them out of my mind.

Tears began to stream down my face as I remembered yesterday.  Sundays are particularily hard.  I was dragging.  I kept saying if I can just get to the shower and to church I know I will feel better.  I called several friends to pray I would push through the wall before me and get to church.

Well I made it praying each step of the way.  And midway of hearing Jesus loves you.  You can trust Him.  Let Him breath life into you.  An encounter with the living God changes everything. The cloud did begin to lift.  It was a great day but today I am needing Jesus all over again.  Praying from one task to another.  I have been made needy.  I need God most of the time just to get through my days.  But how awesome He is.  He has risen and lives within me. Breathing, giving life to my dry bones.

Risk or Rust

It is easy to get in a comfort zone and not move out, for everyone. Especially if you have a mental disorder.  We must realize life begins when we move out in faith, beyond what we can do in our own strength.  It is risky.  The fear of failure and thinking you cannot accomplish anything different than where we are grows us stagnant. There is no joy in living.  To move out of your comfort zone is where life begins.  Remember the same power, the Spirit, that raised Christ from the dead lives in you.

Is God Angry?

Someone said to me today, "I think God is punishing me ."  God trains us but does not punish us.  No matter what we may think God is not angry with us.  There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ.   Jesus paid for our sins.  God loves us forever and always. 

A New Day

Today is a new day.  Full of mercy and grace and love in my heart.  Your presence is ever so close.  I am resting in your promise.  Mercies are new every morning.  I am feeling comforted.  At peace.  Joy is all around me in the sound of silence.  Creation singing of your greatness.  Glory to your name for your faithfulness.  Praise for who you are.  Worship for your mighty hand in my life.

Beautiful Mind

             

                                               1 Cor. 2:16  But we have the mind of Christ.
                                 
There are days that are harder than others for us all.  I think the ones that upset me the most are when I have intrusive thoughts.  They are unwanted thoughts.  Some go from, you can't do anything right.  To something that is just awful.  It depends on how I am doing whether I can stop the thoughts or not.  If I am doing really well  I can recognize them.  Then tell myself the truth.
These thoughts, I have noticed, come when I am fearful.  I never knew I was fearful before I came  in touch with who I am.  Living out of denial.

Phil 4:8 tells us to think on whatever is true, honorable, right , pure, whatever is lovely, of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything is worthy of praise to dwell on these things.  I cannot do this apart from my relationship and dependence on God.  When I am close to His heart I actually can begin to think what He thinks.  Hurt when He hurts.  Long for what He longs for.